Grandfather
I have an aching in my heart for I know your fate.
I saw the pain in your eyes,
I saw the sadness in your wife’s.
And I saw the tears in my eyes as I glared at the mirror.
Knowing my time with you is limited makes me regret things I’ve said about you,
Makes me regret the time I waisted that I could have had with you.
Hearing your suffering hurts from the deepest part of my broken heart
I see all the things I’ve saddned myself about is nothing compared to the fact that I am losing someone I love and loved so dearly.
I long for more time with you.
I know it’s selfish to want – to need you to prolong your suffering, just so I can look into your eyes and tell you how much I love you without the proper words to describe.
To tell you how much I will miss you without the grammer to explain it how I wish to.
All I can say right now is; I’m sorry for the words I threw because of stupid anger.
I’m sorry I won’t be there to tell you bye and see you off to hopefully a better life to experience, and more love to be invited into your soul.
I’m a person of not many words but many letters put together to create my world, from my heart onto a piece of paper.
But even with all the paper in the world, I’ll never have enough to describe how grateful I am to have had you in my life, or to tell you how much I love you and will miss you or how much I wish to have had more time with you.
Oh how my heart weeps dear grandfather.
To know my sorrow and suffering.
To know yours
How am I to bare the pain to see you leave, to know I won’t have the chance to tell you all.
If you are to listen on the day I read this aloud, I just wish you to know;
You are not alone among the dead for many are there and many will join.
I just wish you to know…
We all love you and enjoyed the time we had with you and all who didn’t have the chance to encounter your bright soul, is and always will be at a loss in their lives
You are such a beautiful soul that the ones who missed their chance to experience your light, or to have taken it for granted – I in a sense, will forever have a darkness in their life to not have seen your brightness
I love you and always will,
For you are my light. Guiding me through the night
